With University deadlines just around the corner, I’ve reached that point where every day is crucial. I NEED to start making productive use of my time.
On Friday I did a 14 hour stint in the library. No joke, I was in there from 1:45pm until 4am. Granted, I popped out occasionally and used the coffee machine and took regular comfort breaks etc, but for the vast majority of that time I was sat at my computer work station. Unfortunately, between texting my friends and checking my phone, browsing Facebook and watching ‘The Annoying Orange’ videos on Youtube, I didn’t actually get a whole lot of work done.
The video below is the one which I consider to be the most annoying!
The video below is the one which I consider to be the most annoying!
Luckily, on Friday my pessimistic week hadn’t yet begun. So my outlook upon leaving the library was; ‘tomorrow’s another day.’
Realising that today was my last chance to redeem myself and have something to show for the weekend, I finally knuckled down and at long last finished writing a magazine article I had been working on.
After a long hard slog, that ‘I’ve Finished!’ feeling is literally like no other. I felt liberated.
However, being a pessimist, that feeling of ecstasy didn’t last long. Oh no. I started focusing, not on what I had achieved, but what I had not. I still have to produce over a thousand words for the Magazine writing module, have a three thousand word politics essay to start, two online news stories to do, a one thousand word critical analysis of working as a broadcast journalist, which, despite broadcasting being my supposed specialist subject area WILL require extensive research. All this is to be done whilst continuously producing radio and television news packages for my portfolio. And (obviously) it’s all got to be completed by the end of term.
Sorry if some of that has gone over your head. In truth, half of it goes over mine, which leads me to feel, not only negativity, but almost self-loathing. Why do I have to be such a last minute person? Why do I not work consistently throughout the semesters? Why do I treat lectures as a social occasion rather than an opportunity to actually learn something? I ask myself these questions EVERY deadline period, and yet still find myself in the same situation the following semester. Maybe I’m actually going to have to learn the hard way and fail a module before I change my ways.
Ordinarily I’d defend my tendencies with the reasoning that being laid back is a desirable personality trait. During my week of pessimism I’ve become aware that my outlook is stupid, and that perhaps I’m just lazy.
If pessimism leads to self-loathing then my self-esteem is going to be at an all time low by the end of the week and I’ll require extensive therapy to build it up again. I can see the blog topic now; ‘A week in the life of a Psychotherapy patient.’ Drop me a complimentary comment once in a while else I fear this scenario may actually become reality!
For anyone who's procrastinating whilst reading this, watching this video is a must!
For anyone who's procrastinating whilst reading this, watching this video is a must!
her voice is REALLY annoying... perhaps more so than the orange? hmmm.
ReplyDeletescreenshots are fun... i'll try that :P
"Remember folks, 'SOME day' isn't a day of the week!" Ha.
ReplyDeleteThey're embedded videos, if you can use them on your site you definately should. Making the most of all the multi-media options makes for more fun for vistors! (Or in my case, gives them more material to keep them procrastinating!)